The small world of Nudge..

Rambling Thoughts Of disapointment..

[warning] Content might be a bit painfull, but honest! [/warning]

So yesterday was my first show with Redmage.. the "Just for LoL's show".. I have a bit of mixed feelings about it.. Mostly because im a little bit of a control freak when it comes down to stuff like this.. I have it in my head in a certain kind of way and I want to make it perfect. It is a big chance for me to show my qualities and I am afraid I kinda disapointed myself yesterday.. That is why I have mixed feelings about the show..

Let me explain it.. 

In the beginning.. I was too silent.. That was more because I didnt want to talk through JR and we didnt really talked about the starting of the show.. With the delay in skype and my tendency to interupt people I was really focussing on trying to not do this.. That was why I was so quiet in the beginning of the show.. Next time that will be different.

Since I just started learning everything there is about LoL, I have a lot of catching up to do.. My knowledge might be 10% of what there is to know about the game. So talking to people who play it a lot and knowing so much more then me made me feel like a complete n00b.. I know what I was talking about, but getting further in to it, further into the game.. For me.. I cant really talk along with it anymore.. 

The reason I have mixed feelings about it is because of the second part of the show.. 

I am a really good peoples person.. I am enthousiastic and I can pick peoples brains.. To be honest.. I thought that the interview yesterday went really well.. It was quite nice and friendly.. I also think that we had a lot of fun..

There were a lot of compliments we got from people that watched. Redmage said he had quite a lot of people telling us that we did a good job.. Also got that same reaction from the people we actually interviewed. We were great hosts.. 

I hope that the people who watched it here can tell me more about what they thought of it.. And for next monday.. I will make a promise to you guys..

I will keep up with my knowledge and will be better this monday! Improvement every week.. That is my promise to you guys!! Please like my facebook, my anook, my twitter.. I need you guys to help me, to get better, to get our show on the road.. I  cant do it without you guys... Please do it for me and let me know how I can help you :) 

♥♥ Love to you guys ♥♥
 
Th-th-th-that's all folks! For today at least!! But not before we ended with: 

Random Thought of Today (RToT):  This made me laugh: If a cow laughs really hard does milk come out of her nose?  

Song of the Day (SotD):  "Little piece of my heart" Janis Joplin

Rambling Thoughts Of Excitement!!!

[warning] Content might be chaotic, really enthousiastic and maybe a tiny bit nervousity [/warning]

Tonight is the night we are gonna make it happen!! 

Tonight will be the first official ItsGosu LoL show starring RedmageJR and me.. Im really excited about this and a little bit nervous.. 

For all the LoL fans out there, that read my blog or are interested in the LoL community and news.. Please come and watch our show tonight at 21:00 (9 pm) gmt. 

What are we going to talk about??! Let me tell you!
If you are a pro at League of Legends, this might not be interesting for you.. If you just started, like to follow the LoL news and/or are a decent player who loves the community and wants to know more about it.. Then this is your show.. 

The basic set up is this:

• Introduce our guests for the show (This time its going to be two people from the team Furious Gaming, a sc2 / lol team based in Argentina.. One of them is the manager, the other one is one of the LoL players)
• We are going to start of with some news (what happened last weekend, what is going to happen next weekend, etc.)
• The interview with a team (so this time Furious Gaming)
• the patch update
• the hero spotlight
• community time (this is the place where all the people that are watching can ask questions to either one of the casters, or to the team we are interviewing.. This is your time and you can ask what ever you want.. I wont promise we will answer every question hahahaha... )

After the show, please send me some commentary so that I know what we could improve, change, what you guys want to know more about or what you guys actually want us to do more with the show! Even if it is a lot of commentary, please tell me cause we can only learn from it.. This is the first show that we are doing, so it will have some "beauty" mistakes as we call it in the Netherlands.. We really want to know this, cause the show is for you guys!! 

Then the thing Im a bit nervous about... We are actually working with our webcams on.. And I think that I make a lot of funny movements and faces when I speak to people online.. So I hope I will not look too silly and feel a bit comfortable with the webcam on!! 

And.. for those who know this inside joke.. Im not gonna sing :P .. 

I have been really busy (for at least 5 hours) with the preparation for this show! So please come support me ♥
 
Th-th-th-that's all folks! For today at least!! But not before we ended with: 

Random Thought of Today (RToT): How would it feel to live absolutely timeless? THat you really dont have the realisation that you need to be somewhere at a certain time, or need to get up at a certain time.. Would it free you or would it make you not able to work in this society anymore.. 

Song of the Day (SotD):  "de dag dat alles beter is" by Nick en Simon (sorry this is dutch AND cheesy also.. but somehow this makes me happy :P )

This is the translation http://lyricstranslate.com/en/De-dag-dat-alles-beter-DAY-WHEN-EVERYTHING-BETTER.htmlX_7744X

Rambling Thoughts Of Annoyance... 

[warning] Content might be chaotic, really annoyed and lots of rambling [/warning]

And again Im tired.. But Im glad it is weekend. This week has been really really stressful to me..

I have the mondays off, but since the exams where there and people always tend to wait with checking them till the last day, it costs a lot of work to get hold of the people you need to get hold off.  It took me 2 days to finally be able to reach to the person I needed to get to. She was late with checking her exams so I got it late too.. I've been working my ass off getting everything done in time.. 

Then you also have there really really annoying people that try to do everything too perfect or too good. I was talking to this first year collegue in a different school who was checking my exams. She had so many point and things that I got really annoyed.. I always think, if you can read in the answer what that person means, then it is good isnt it.. Is it about the knowledge or the way that people write things down.. I always tend to think it is about knowing the things instead of writing it exactly down. I always tend to skipp most of the things that I find reasonable good enough.. 

She was looking really into the fine details of what every student wrote down.. They needed to learn four books, for crying out loud woman, they are humans too..

I also went out to dinner with work twice this week.. And though I dont dislike my collegues.. Two times in the week is more then enough for me.. They are not 100% my kind of people so it is always nice if I can hang out with my kind of persons.. 

I am also really tired cause I had a sleep time from 12:00 - 2 and from 4-6... four hours in total, divided over the night.. My friend did something really stupid. So when I heard the door slam, I went downstairs and be a good friend, talking and trying to cheer up.. I never seen anyone so upset.. And it is still not really solved.. 

We wanted to go to LowLands (a music festival). The tickets were sold out within an hour..So we didnt had any tickets.. Now there are several people online that bought tickets too and are selling it again either to make a lot of money, or because something happend so they cant go.. My friend bought tickets.. but it was a scam.. So instead of being able to go to lowlands, there is 450 euros spend on fake tickets.. I would feel really stupid and sad as well.. Who wouldnt? 

Then I had only three hours to teach, the exams to turn in and now it is weekend.. So rest?

NO

Today JR and me will finally lay the last hand on our show.. On Monday will be the first episode at 21:00 gmt. Its going to be great! Well at least I hope..

So tell me guys, what do you think of when you think of LoL.. What would you like to see in a show etc! :) 

Love to hear from you... ♥ to the great community and my online friends ♥ I really wuvvv you guys.... 
 
Th-th-th-that's all folks! For today at least!! But not before we ended with: 

Random Thought of Today (RToT): <Empty> really it is Empty :p

Song of the Day (SotD):  "One Word" by Anouk 

Rambling Thoughts Of rambling rambling rambling... 

[warning] Content might be chaotic and lots of rambling [/warning]

So last night was suppose to be the first time RedMageJR and me were going to have our show.. I was really excited did hours (and im not kidding with hours) of research on the tactics on different teams, the new champion etc.. But.. Is it all in vain?? 

I will find out soon.. In 1.5 hours we will have a meeting with the big boss of ItsGosu. There are some things changing in their department (so within the LoL department) and a really good professional caster is taking over the LoL department.. 

Where does that leave me (/us)? That is a really good question.. As soon as I know more about that I will update you. 

I heard this terrible news last night we might get cancelled completely.. And, to be completely honest, it did bring tears to my eyes.. I have been working quite hard on getting my knowledge up about League of Legends. My love for casting is even going so far that I decided that, with playing LoL and trying to get more knowledge about that, I will not have time to play Starcraft 2. I pushed Sc2 aside to focus on LoL.. I really spend hours on research.. I will be quite sad if it is all in vaine.. 
I will however do my interview with 9bzz.. That will not be a problem.

Is it too girly or too emotional to actual admit that writing about this makes me sad? I should let me get down at the moment, cause there hasnt been said anything at the moment.. Maybe we are allowed to do our show, if not, we can always just do it as a personal private thing.. I finally kinda got over my fear of putting on the webcam too during this.. 

So let us cross fingers and hope for the best.. There is one thing I promise, I will keep you guys updated about what is going to happen and what you can expect.. I hope with all my heart that you can expect a lot from me in the future in any way.. ♥ thanks for the support I got this far already ♥ Its amazing how people that you never met in real life, and probably wont ever can support you and feel similar to what you are thinking/doing.. Its quite amazing and I do love every internet friendship I have :)

Which gets me to this other point... 

One of my internet friends is going to get a very serious operation tomorrow. She will have a tumor removed out of her brains.. You can imagine that it is going to be such a big operation.. If you guys could do something for me/her tomorrow... Put on a candle.. In church people do that.. I am not really religious, but this is a way for me to showing her that Im thinking of her.. 

Thank you in advance guys ♥

On a different note.. This is a preview of my logo :) 

http://i39.photobucket.com/albums/e195/ElongSingalong/…
http://i39.photobucket.com/albums/e195/ElongSingalong/…


Its a bad pic, but since my phone is still broke and is getting fixed this is what I can do :p .. 
 
Th-th-th-that's all folks! For today at least!! But not before we ended with: 

Random Thought of Today (RToT): why do i feel tired when i slept more then 6 hours and really alive after 4 hours sleep?

Song of the Day (SotD): "Caught me" by Stephen Lynch (see vid below)

Rambling Thoughts Of Excitement..

[warning] Content might be chaotic and too much excitement rambling [/warning]

Tonight is the night!! Oh yeah!! The night we are going to make it happen..

And ofcourse you guys and gals who read my utterly chaotic writings wonder..

WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN TONIGHT? PLEASE TELL US WE ARE EXPLODING OF CURIOUSITY!! 

I will tell you guys (and gals ofcourse) and you have to promise me to watch!! 

Tonight RedMageJr from ItsGoSu and me are going to do our first LoL show!! YAY YAY YAY!! 

This will all be towards this weekend where several really good LoL teams will come together and face each other in the arena of summoners rift! Reading through the several teams that are going to enter.. It is going to be really excited. There are several really good American teams going to Anaheim, but the EU department will also be represented in Anaheim.. Its going to be a lot of slaughter, killing creeps and madness!! I can promise you that for this weekend.. 

The other thing we are going to do is getting a bit more into Draven. This is the new hero and he looks utterly strong! Riot makes the new heroes always really strong so they sell better.. Then they put in a patch and reduce the heroes skill again.. Go play Draven.. He is quite strong at the moment and he looks really good!

Did you people actually noticed the graphics update on Ashe? I have two favorite champions, Ashe and Vayne. I love them both equally but with the new graphics of Ashe I feel like it is nicer to look at her then at Vayne.. I really hope that Vayne will get an update too (and a new skin, cause I really dont like the skins you can buy... They are not special and the one with the hearts is way too cheesy in my opinion.. I like the default skin of Vayne more then the ones you can buy) 

Riot keep up the good work with these things!! Cause I really love it!! 

Please all tune in tonight.. The show will start at 21:00 gmt.. (And for those who use different time zones here is a really usefull helper to convert 21:00 gmt in your time http://wwp.greenwichmeantime.com/gmt-converter/X_7251X)
 
Th-th-th-that's all folks! For today at least!! But not before we ended with: 

Random Thought of Today (RToT): I think if you could compare my brain to something in nature, it would be a spider web.. It looks quite easy when you see it at first, but when you get closer to it you see there are lots of layers and work into it, and some even stick.. 

Song of the Day (SotD): "Something about Us" by DaftPunk (you know its for you ;) )

Rambling Thoughts Of cuteness, puppies and irritation facts..

[warning] Content might be chaotic, tired, nonsense and frustrated [/warning]

Im tired today again.. This time because I slightly overslept.. (It was 2 pm when I woke up).. Deciding to go downstairs at that point and take care of the love of my life.. My little puppy!! 

Let me warn you guys.. This blog will not contain any gamin adventures etc. I wanted to spend this whole blog about my doggy.. 

Ive bought him when he was nine weeks old. Never really owned a dog  before but only cats, I thought I would get attached to this animal the same way as I would get attached to my cat. I loved my cat.. But if I needed to go away or anything else, it would not be a big problem.. I could leave it behind and not think about it untill I would get home again and see it. Dont get me wrong, I am really font of that cat, but it didnt feel like you were really their boss or if they were really attached to you.. 

That feeling completely changed with my doggy Drago. He is a full american stafford, both of his parents have a pedigree, and he is the sweetest dog ever. 

American staffords have a really bad name, also in this country.. They are known as biting dogs. They would bite people without reason, be really agressive and not smart. 

When people let their chihuhuas walk around free (those little rats, that are against evolution and should have died long long time ago because they should be on the lower part of the foodchain) people go "Oh how cute, what a cute doggy bla bla bla bla" When I let my American stafford walk freely.. People get scared.. 

As part of my frustration about this let me tell you all this:

• If I would ever have the slight idea that my dog could be agressive I would never let him walk without a leash.
• If big/medum dogs arent allowed to walk freely, then the same goes for those little annoying rats
• If a dog that you dont know walks up to you, dont react to it by lifting your rat up to your chest height. The dog will look interested up because you are holding something up. My dog doesnt jump, other dogs will.
• And what ever you do DONT REACT ANGRY to either the dog or the owner, cause I promise, there will be a day that I will learn my dog to react to angry people.. If you dislike it and you tell me that in a normal way.. I will react normal.. Panic is never a good advisor and the dog will react to you in the same way as you do as an owner.. 

I am in love with my dog. In my opinion, you will never find a sweeter, cuter or better dog then Drago. And as something rare, you can find in the external link a video of my dog. I had him for 3 days at that moment.. 

Tell me when you look into his eyes... Do you see the eyes of a cold blooded killer, bred to kill bulls, or do you see a loving dog, only looking for love??

Th-th-th-that's all folks! For today at least!! But not before we ended with: 

Random Thought of Today (RToT): I found an answer to this: http://unscrwed.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/… If I was god I would answer "because if someone is willing to put up a finger in your ass you know it is true love"

Song of the Day (SotD): "The worst hangover ever" by the Offspring (Cause i have a headache, probably because of too much alcohol on the birthday I went to last night)