Lately I experienced something strange.
When I hit the age of 30, I first gave it no big thought. I didn't feel any different from in my 20s, I was still crazy, still chaotic and enthusiastic like a little child. But after some time I suddenly felt especially clumsy in my usual games. I am a bit dorky in general but it all seemed to transform all of a sudden - my reactions were slow, when healing, people kept dying. When dpsing, I didn't hit a thing. And I started asking myself... are you too old for gaming?
My passion for gaming started when a business colleague of my fathers dumped his computer. Back then not everyone had a machine at home. So my father got it and let me use it too. With the PC came my first video game ever - Indiana Jones!
Point to click and hilariously funny!! This totally for me started into the world of gaming, being part of another universe, solving riddles, being a hero, experiencing journeys! Soon after I got my first Game Boy and have not been seen anymore for many months, 24/7 playing Tetris, Mario and, later, catching all the Pokémon!
(ancient Neny girl piccies are ancient!)
I met my first boyfriend in the width of the internet and therefore met my today's hubby in the World of Warcraft! So gaming is not only my favorite hobby and free time activity, but also the place I met some of the most wonderful people! I've been in a very ambitious raiding guild, quit on many university lessons to attend various ingame stuff and stood up awake all night to bring some bosses up - many great memories collected in all these last ~ 20 years.
(19 y/o very WoW addicted Neny practically glued to that chair :p)
No matter my pesonal life choices or progress in my daily life, my love for games never ebbed away. Games like Skyrim made me feel more home than my actual home back then and it is still like the best of holidays when I run around Solitude and pickpocked clueless people :')
When I met @Elloa and got into Whitestar, my life changed big time. I finally have not been a tool in a raiding guild to achieve goalds but an important part of a little family in the internet with people all over the world who I would never have met otherwise! Since it's been a difficult time in my life, so many unstable conditions, anxiety and sadness, Whitestar was my solid rock and my place to go. And it still is! My life has become more healthy, I do not feel lost anymore, but I still value the evenings I can come back home with my Smokie and still login to Anook/Discord and all my favorite friends are there!!
I can remember a very special night in my life. I just moved to a new city and Smokie was still back in the old to get stuff done. It's been night and I have been TERRIBLY afraid in the dark. We had no furniture but my computer setup in an empty room besides a mattress. I've been too scared to fall asleep so I managed to get the internet working and there was @Elloa - live streaming as her magical Esper lady, healing @Hultay @LunaDra @Rhashazi and @Kitiandra and I instantly didn't feel lost and lonely anymore. We had a funny chat and watching her die while jumping in that sword maiden place made everyone happy this evening. And it literally made me feel home again and that friends were still around me, no matter how far apart in person.
(credits to @Elloa)
But after quite some time, nearly two decades of gaming, I suddenly feel like I am too old to be doing this quite right anymore. I have never been the best shooter person or server #1 healer, but I have been a decent player, reliable, in the tops, quick. But after the new WoW patch hit I am 99 % of the time like:
My mouse and keyboard do feel alienated in my hands.
Everytone around me appears to move so much faster.
I am dying in this fire I never died before!
What is happening?!
Is it my age, really? Is it the new hardware I got after my old stuff broke? But what if not... what if I really slowly begin to be too clumsy and slow for nowaday gaming? To be honest it kind of scared me. Thinking back I used to be some badass disc priest, for example, melting faces with penance in battlegrounds, too quick to be killed and loathed by the enemy players. If I set a foot into a hostile pvp area now, I get kinda 2shot and remain puzzled.
Have you ever felt this change in your life too?
And if so, what did you do about it? I do not simply want to give up on my gaming life. Yes, I do not desire to be some progressive gamer anymore. I enjoy my relaxed and casual Overwatch matches - but I do not wish to become an ancient skeleton either, who moves so slowly that she can be killed by a 12 year old who insults his mother while sniping all the people.
I want to stay crazy gaming Neny who can keep up with her teammates and don't make them feel annoyed for "carrying" an old woman to victory!!
Did tiny pink hyperactive Neny turn into old boring grandma Neny who is poking young gamers with a trout?!
- Jul 23, 2016, 3:01:16 PM