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CharcoalDragon

CharcoalDragon

Male, 28 years old, lives in Melbourne, Australia

CharcoalDragon

Hey guys, just settled in a little after driving 3 days solo across Australia. I now officially live in WA again as of Friday night. Uni enrolments this week. Also wanna sort out my car a little, maybe find a casual job. And the next set of 'Magic: the gathering' comes out next week. Woot! Take Care.

Tbag
  • Jan 26, 2014, 11:10:11 PM
Tbag

Good stuff CD :-) that's quite a drive, good to hear it went ok! Take care

ghag07
  • Jan 27, 2014, 12:46:18 AM
ghag07

welcome back!

ghag07
  • Jan 27, 2014, 4:49:09 AM
ghag07

to Perth anyway......

CharcoalDragon

Hi guys,

Wanted to give you guys a heads up on some changes in my life. I understand that what I share may not reflect your personal viewpoints but I know this clan to be made of reasonable, respectful, mature, friendly people that I have had quite the pleasure to play with, 'hang out' with and talk to. I hope to express clearly my journey and gladly expect to answer any questions/ concerns/ discussions.

 

As most of you would be vaguely aware I spent about 3 years as a volunteer with a Catholic youth orientated missionary group. I am a Catholic and for me faith is not a vague, abstract arbitrary construct but rather a reality as much a part of our world as the physical side that dominates our perception. It is also a journey, with adventure, challenges, obstacles, beauty, purpose, joy, sorrow and discovery.

 

Since I was a young child I always liked playing computer games, something I inherited from my father. It is an enjoyable hobby and great media art form. However, like most things that are good in the right place / context and time but can also be damaging when used inappropriately (like fire in a fireplace bringing warmth and light, compared to a bushfire rampaging through rural suburbs taking lives and destroying property) video games can very easily become an obsession, isolating and even destructive.

 

In high school video games were a large percentage of my overall identity and passion. During my gap year in 2009, if I wasn't working, sleeping or at my regular Friday night youth group I was playing Playstation. Near the end of that year people may also remember that my PS3 broke, 2 days before the release of Uncharted 2 (which I had pre-ordered at 3 locations to capitalize on different stores pre-order bonus and returns policies). I recognise in this timing no small accident. Through my relationship with God I believe that this was a not so subtle motivation for me , without which I would not have been prepared for the next step in my journey. It came right at the time I had decided to join the Youth Mission Team for the 2010 school year. At this time I said that I was not confident in the place that computer games would have in my life in the future.

 

Over the next 3 years I was largely pre-occupied with my volunteer work and would maintain intermittent contact with you guys, my friends that I had made on games such as Resistance 2, KillZone 2 and the MAG Beta. At the end of 2012 (just over a year ago), after working with the YMT for 3 years I finished up my time as a volunteer and found myself with a lot of time on my hands and not many other personalities or responsibilities to consider. Also the type of volunteering I was doing was particularly intense, demanding and at times painfully stressful. This period of time is marked by increased vulnerability and, in my experience, desperation. At this I was able to dedicate a large amount of my time and energy to computer games again.

 

As much as we guard ourselves from negative influences, even our greatest resolve can be compromised. In my experience computer games have taken a place of inappropriate priority and dependence. Remembering again the analogy of the fireplace and the bushfire, and again through my relationship with God, and trusting in the call He places on my life, to follow Him along the path He has hand picked for me and my happiness and for the sake of others in this life and the next, I have reached a critical moment, a crossroads.

 

I have realised that I must give up computer games.

Even if only for a time, in order to re-establish appropriate boundaries and to later approach gaming with a better attitude. In a way almost like an alcoholic needs to make an all or nothing approach to an addiction.

 

This has very obvious implications. I won't be spending as much time with you guys. It seems a little strange for me, the need to make a clear expression of my process. But I think it is something we all understand, evident also when Micka shared his life situation and its impact on his participation in this clan. It is clear to me that we share in this way because of the real, tangible and very strong connection and friendships we have developed during our virtual encounters. I consider you all to be my genuine friends. We have been on many great adventures together, shared many laughs and fond memories. We have even stood side by side on countless battlefields, facing diabolical foes. While these experiences have been in a virtual world, with no lasting consequences the relationships formed are foundationally those of a brotherhood (and sisterhood, if you're reading Steph).

 

This doesn't have to mean I do not remain in contact. However I am a person who finds it quite difficult to maintain communication with people over long distances. In this case distances were figuratively bridged over internet connections through games, a bridge that will see little traffic from me. Without the In-game contact I will struggle to be present and active in this community. I will try to pop in every now and then, as is common amongst our brethren.

 

As brothers, and people whom I actually care about in my own way, I wish you all the best. I will pray for you all and hope for the fulfilment of your life's purposes as fathers, sons, students and honest, decent men (and women).

 

For those of you who find my motivations, reasoning or beliefs strange or confronting, I urge you to please enter into discussion with me about it. Either here or if I am not active here (or you would feel more comfortable to communicate personally) via e-mail using charcoaldragon@hotmail.com .

God Bless.

Thomas Miller

CD

Timesplitter01
  • Jan 6, 2014, 8:28:49 AM
Timesplitter01

You should do what you think is right for yourself. The door is always open at BTG.

motoboy76
  • Jan 7, 2014, 10:15:25 PM
motoboy76

Good luck CD, and all the best buddy pop in now and again hey....

CharcoalDragon
  • Jan 8, 2014, 7:28:33 AM
CharcoalDragon

Thanks heaps guys, I just managed to get some internet. I'm actually away on a week long retreat type camp. Really enjoying myself and really confirmed in my decision while i'm here. I'm still checking in regularly, just internet is scare in this valley outside Melbourne, near Bacchus Marsh.

CharcoalDragon

bought 'the last of us' for $50 post christmas. woot woot

Boognish777
  • Dec 30, 2013, 3:56:34 AM
Boognish777

7/11 BTG'ers called it GOTY. You wont be disappointed. Enjoy mate.

Toddster
  • Dec 31, 2013, 5:40:49 AM
Toddster

Best game you'll play!! :D I gotta go and play it again soon..

CharcoalDragon

Hey guys, what's been going on? I've been away for about a week. road tripped it up to Sydney (woolongong), spent some time with my mate marty from perth. anyway, while I was away I found out that I got accepted into uni in Perth. woot woot.

PAPO
  • Dec 20, 2013, 10:42:57 AM
PAPO

@hags, your just exited you'll finally have someone in the same time zone :P

ghag07
  • Dec 20, 2013, 11:52:09 AM
ghag07

.......maybe.......

CharcoalDragon
  • Dec 23, 2013, 12:07:27 AM
CharcoalDragon

although last time i was in perth i didnt play any ps3

CharcoalDragon

Omg, forgot to say, I found the TARDIS in contrast last night.

PAPO
  • Dec 3, 2013, 1:21:30 PM
PAPO

cool, how far in???

CharcoalDragon
  • Dec 3, 2013, 5:13:00 PM
CharcoalDragon

Not far, its near the cinema, which is after the ghost note and the jazz bar.

PAPO
  • Dec 4, 2013, 12:57:55 AM
PAPO

oh so I missed it already then :(

CharcoalDragon

Forgot how weird and messed up Doctor Who can be sometimes. Haven't watched any since the last Christmas special and just watched "The bells of st. john" on iView. Messed up stuff. Love it

(And i just moved the wireless router into my room behind the house.)

Boognish777
  • Nov 19, 2013, 11:07:04 PM
Boognish777

I love me some Dr Who. I watched a show last night on ABC2. It was a best of episodes explained by the writers and actors. So clever & like you said, messed up.